im actually a bit nervous as to where i am in life. i always sit and fucking blab about my choices and where i am and everything else, but lately its been worse.

i just cant concentrate, i dont want to. im bored, im bored with what im doing and the results, this is all work related to be straightforward. i just cant stand where i am in it all and all i can think about is where do i want to go next.

i want to be a writer. i want to make films. i want to be a musician. i want to be someone for somebody. i want to be a professor. i want to be something that is something. there are too many somebodies and they all end up to be nobodies once and awhile.

the irony? im literally in the best mood lately. i mean, yeah i get a bit sick, but its all worth it. i recently started dating someone. everything is torrentially gorgeous...its throwing me back. i dont want to close my eyes for a second!

i started falling for this girl, ive fallen for this girl, and i think shes probably the most interesting person ive ever met. theres something about her, something that inspires, that makes me want to just be something. i like her...i cant say anything more than that. haha.

you know you really enjoy someone when theyre gone for just a moment and all you want is to fill that time with her.

as life collapses around and i try to hold it up by the pillars...im smiling while doing it. theres this feeling i get with her. i was at such a loss before, in such a slump and alone. i woke up though. it feels great to hear someone say they miss you too or that they like you around. it feels like, well, it feels like everything is right.

maybe it is.